That we meet in our middle way, on our way back down to earth.
Profile Pamela 11071995 I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? Tagboard Credits ©Glamouresque.	Monday, August 25, 2008 I'm sick, and dying. HELLO. today is one of my sickest day. sick, as in really, I AM SICK. okay, make it simpler, im having cough and flu. i didn't frigging intend to go to school today. afterall, i didn't have the energy to. i was uber tired yesternight. and what made it worst was that i locked myself out of my phone the day before. i went to sort of do some stuffs with the pin, then i ended up locking myself out of the phone. so ya, how i woke up from bed today. i was super pissed. yes, piss. damn piss. like what is their fucking problem? forcing people to go to school, when they are fucking ill and so dead already. dead being, no mood in getting out of bed, dead as in absoblutely no energy already, dead as in the brain has no life to work. being pissed was what drove me out of bed. i was literally pissed for, what the hell is a grown man doing in MY room, and messing it up to find the switch to the damn table light. i was pissed at the fact that HE was in MY room. so, after being so fed up that he can't find the switch, i just got out of bed, yes, i was like so strengthless, thus, being pissed was what gave me the "strength" to. i went to the bathroom, brushed up. went back to the room. changed into my uniform, took my not-even-packed bag and off to school, in WET shoes. i got no idea why my school shoes were wet, i am the one who washes it, but i don't remember doing so, for the past month. :X school was okay. i would much rather sleep and get more energy though. going to school. hahaha. being called up by Ms Tang during geography for sleeping in her lesson was stupid. being told multiple times by the chinese teacher to clip my frinch up and not ly on the table was crazy. much more. listened to music during physics. hahaha. bleeding love. :D hahaha. keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love- this line is stucked in my head. i am trying to escape from problems in my life. not thinking about them seems to be the best way out. argh. not thinking about them, perhaps, let me not even bother about it. but, i would have to face it, some time in the future. i hate it. i hate the fact that i was even borned to know that my parents no longer exist in this world. i hate the fact that i had to be adopted. i hate the fact that i am living in this block. i hate the fact that i existed. i hate the fact that i am alive. i hate the fact that no one in this "family" cares. why? i don't know. to: my family. i hate you. i don't now why, but ya, i do. why? perhaps you guys are being too paranoid. don't tell me it's my fault. i'm tired of all this crap. reflect on yourself, i bet my attitude towards you has got something to do with how i've been treated and insulted by you these past weeks. i've had enough. i have this damn temptation to take that pair of scissors and snip your tongues out. enough of the nagging, lecturing and insult. i feel like writing a NEED list. i shall. :D I NEED; #1; to change out of my school uniform. [ i'm still in it. :O ] #2; to get a life. [ hahaha. :D ] #3; a call. [ hahaha. ] #4; to find a friend to slack with. [ hahaha. ultra slacker. :P ] #5; to hug my teddy bear. [ oh no. where is it? hahaha. ] #6; to basketball. #7; to sweat. #8; to stop believing people that said could fulfill my #2- 10. [ cos, they haven't. refer to previous posts. ] #9; to stop being sick. #10; to stop being so tired. hahahaha. laugh at the giant #8. :D i am getting sick of school. school, as in studying. studying, as in something to do with book. something to do with books, as in exercising my brain. BYE. :D